Because I Can't.

I am Karly. I am a woman. I am fat and pregnant and about to get fatter and even more pregnant.

I am a bartender. I sling drinks for the privileged few and the pompous many who just think they're privileged. I am popular for not being an ugly bitch.

I am a student. I love school but am finding my ego deflated because I'm apparently not as smart as I once was.

I am bored. Unmotivated. Lazy. Sad. How do I take the step I keep screaming at myself to take? I haven't figured it out yet, but I'm sure I will when time is ready for me to move on. Until then I'll just be happy I can keep on taking Wellbutrin through my pregnancy, because hormones are not my friend and I am not a fan of feeling suicidal during my first trimester.

Life does get better, right?